Embracing Me……….

2018 is off and running as we are over halfway thru January. The new year has stimulated my few remaining, functional brain cells into percolating and  brewing on what topics and observations I might want to share in this blog. I started this blog in August 2017 and initially I wanted to do hard-edged political opinion. Unfortunately there is just way too much political garbage going on and while it is fun to make light of progressives who don’t have the same views as I do, it does tend to get tedious. Besides I don’t think there is a blog Pulitzer anywhere in my future so why be so serious? I then wrote a few blogs about me and various experiences I experienced and those blogs were fun to write. I also attempted to inject humor into several posts and again I had fun while making fun.  Anyway after much self debate and thought, I finally was convinced that since my mind largely works off the chaos theory I might as well blog about whatever strikes my fancy any given day or maybe I should pick the topic the loudest voice in my head shouts out. Either way I get fresh material to write about and hopefully once in a while readers find the content interesting enough to read and come back for more.

Today’s thought of the day is: I am going to embrace getting older in 2018. Now, as a disclaimer I ain’t really that old. I’m 62 and while I feel old I am sure I ain’t seen or felt nothing yet. Sure I know when storms are on the way, the arthritic knees are a great weather predictor and yes I have to stretch out those arthritic knees from time to time to keep moving but by and large I’m healthy as a horse and almost as smart. Since I never ever gave any thought when I was younger concerning what it would be like when I got to 60 and beyond, this is all new territory for me. It might be male menopause or just plain crankiness but I haven’t fully committed myself to admitting I’m over 60. My motto has always been I might get older but I’ll never grow up. When I do have bouts of ‘guess I need to be an adult about this’ it always hurts and I don’t like it. So I guess I now need a new motto: ’embrace who I am’.

I look back on 62 years of personal experience and history and wonder, WOW how did you make it this far? I don’t have a definitive answer to that question, it sure hasn’t been easy and it sure wasn’t clean living and a great attitude. Heck when I was a young adult in the 1970s I was the proto-typical angry young man. Mad at my government, mad at my parents for still trying to give me life advice and mad at well just about everything.  I thought I knew everything I needed to live life to the fullest and if that meant partying all the time so much the better. I was ten feet tall and bullet proof, invincible in every way possible.  Well life sure taught me different.

I was lucky enough to get a job in the computer field right out of high school. I’ve been working with various technology ever since, almost 45 years now. Yes, for you youngsters out their computers have been around that long, actually longer, truth be told. Frankly the thrill is long gone and mostly the job has changed from a technology driven task to customer service based and frankly most computer users  just ain’t too bright. I would rather work on something that failed from an equipment standpoint than attempt to resolve any issue that starts with the phrase “I don’t know what I did but I have an issue”. Dealing with equipment is much easier than dealing with people.

I saw friends come and go as jobs changed, life events changed and moving to different areas of Pennsylvania changed where I chose to live. I am on marriage number 2, have 4 great kids, 4 wonderful grand-kids and all in all enjoy my life. Have there been struggles, absolutely life is full of them. Have there been lean times, yes indeed declared bankruptcy twice. Have there been regrets, I’ve had a few. But by and large there really isn’t a whole lot I can say I would change. Every experience is an opportunity to learn and grow. I guess what I’m saying is I finally have some history behind me to make observations and form opinions from a fairly strong knowledge base. That reason alone makes growing older worthwhile in my eyes.

I guess  I am trying to say in a log-winded way is, I have things to say and this blog is my vehicle to share with the world. So with the new year that is 2018 I guess I am re-dedicating myself to my blog and embracing me for being me. I have read other blogs on word-press that I now follow because it is exciting reading about other people’s thoughts and feelings on different subjects. I also think blogging takes some courage, courage to be able to say what you really think and courage to share something that might otherwise be private. Blogging is therapeutic for me, I like expressing by bull-headed opinions whether other people agree or not. I might not agree with everyone but I do recognize everyone has an opinion. Anyway let’s wrap this up before this becomes an insomnia cure. I mentioned a little bit of info so that if there comes a time when you might read something I write and think “what a maroon this guy is”, well as I said before on my posts: My opinions are formed by what I have experienced, researched and know. I am what I am and that’s what and who I am.  Life is a continuing classroom where we all get schooled on the most important subjects we face everyday. Life is learning and we need to embrace and cherish it.


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